Is It What I Want?

I laid down on my drive way and looked up. That's what I do when I have no idea what I want to write about. More or less, I want to write about something significant, I don't want to just inform you that I had a good day. I want to tell you a little about me. Telling you that I walked my dog and went for a jog because I think I am getting far too heavy has no real significance in the broad scheme of things. So I thought why not take you for the roller coaster ride of my mind, but not my whole mind. That would be far too boring for the random people who end up looking at this blog. No, I'm going to say a few things about what I truly want out of my life. Then again, you can categorize me with ninety-nine percent of the nation's youths because I really have no idea what I want, so I'll tell you a couple of my dreams.

What I do know, I'm great with people. I was blessed with charisma, and a great social ability so I do know that I want a career dealing with people. Lets stray away from my career based dreams for the moment though.

I always dreamed of being in a family. Leading a family. Being a father, being a husband. I don't want to rush this dream though, I just know that is something out of life that I do want and dream of. I want to wake up in my bed in the morning, with a woman that I love. Go down my hallway and peak into my child's bedroom to make sure he, or she, is sleeping well. I want to walk to my refrigerator and make my family breakfast. I want to set a timer on my coffee machine, I want to live that life. I'm a morning person, can you tell?

I've also always dreamed of a career in music. Now do I think this will ever happen? No. My guitar skills are average while my vocal skills are less then that. I'm a lyricist, that basically all I have going for me. But who knows? I always dreamed of being on stage, with fans. The life of touring seems to appealing to me, a different crowd, a different city everyday. Think of all the amazing people you would meet. I just think of all the people I could prove wrong. All the people that told me that it would never happen, not in my wildest of dreams. But its still a dream, yet their probably right.

I wait to feel your breathe 

I walk to hold your hand

I smell to catch the scent of your hair

I lay to hold you 

I listen to hear you heartbeat

I love to love you

- Cam

I really want to be taken seriously. A lot of the people that see me now-a-days don't really see me. They see the image that I have portrayed for the last few years of my life. They see a partier, a fun guy. They see a guy that would never settle down and being with a girl. They don't see me. I wasn't me. 

I've been thinking about careers lately. I think I would be an excellent event planner. You know, someone that sets ups events for corporations and associations, dinners and banquets and those sort of things. I have a plan for that. 

I would start in DC. My cousin told me she would help me get a job and shadow another event planner that she is very close friends with. When I turn twenty-one, I could bar tend on the side and save up money, while making connections, to start my own event planning business. If my business succeeds, I could do what I have always wanted to do. Start up my own place. 

I have so many ideas that would thrive in the community that I live in. 

I want to be a billionaire. 

Does anyone want to give me a billion dollars? 

How about a million? No? Didn't think so. 

Someday one of my dreams will come true. I don't know which one, but I am sure one will. I mean whats the point in dreaming if none of them ever come true. I don't think my dreams are way too far out there, Well maybe the rock star one is.

Who knows right?

We are entirely smooth.
We admit to the truth,
We are the best at what we do.
And these are the words you wish you wrote down.
This is the way you wish your voice sounds,
Handsome and smart.
Oh my tongue's the only muscle on my body
That works harder than my heart.
And its all from watching TV,
And from speeding up my breathing.
Wouldn't stop if I could.
Oh it hurts to be this good.

- Brand New

^^^^ Probably the best lyrics ever. 

Just saying

But for tonight, goodnight.