Clouds

Laying in bed wondering what to type, wondering what out of the many things pouring out of my brain today I should elaborate on and express about. Time to be a little random. I was told today that "it is refreshing to see an educated, thoughtful, deep, yet fun individual in you considering I was one of those people who only ever saw "party cam"" This kind of made my day. I'm really glad there is actually people reading what I have to say, and relating to it. I guess I'm not the only one out there with these issues. Its quite a relief. It also makes me feel better to know I'm not just typing away into darkness and emptiness. Glad someone could take something out of what I got to say.

I've always had this persona of the "party boy." I can understand why. Two years of my life was devoted to being a party boy. Not just a boy who parties but more so a boy who organized parties. Every Friday and Saturday night I would make calls and get a party ready. Sometimes I like to think that I do it because I know that at my parties there won't be creepers or too much drama and that they weren't half bad. Drinks, women, good music. If you have your ducks lined up correctly, you have one hell of a good time.

I've been told by numerous amounts of people that since I left, my fraternity was quite lacking in the party area. One of the brothers actually called me to ask me for advice, because the last one he threw ended up with a handful of people and a keg that was still full at the end of the night. If unsuccessful wasn't spelled u-n-s-u-c-c-e-s-s-f-u-l it would be spelled f-u-l-l-k-e-g-a-t-t-w-o-a-m.

I liked partying, I was good at it. Sit me down and ask me about stories, I can keep you entertained for hours. That is half the reason I'm not crashing with this lack of social life, I can just remember the great times I did have, smile, and think it will happen again one day. I'll do it better, and legally, maybe make a career out of it. Who knows?

I'm taking a couple classes at Northern Virginia Community College this summer. I cannot drive yet so my mom takes me and picks me up, which I am extremely grateful for. The things my mom does for me to help me succeed are unmatched by anyone else that has ever helped me, not just her actions but her comfort and advice. I'm a momma's boy but that's another story.

After my class I sat on a bench with my head phones in and felt the calm sun warm my skin. I ran my fingers through my hair and felt completely relaxed, for the first time in a long time. I looked up to adore the bright blue of the sky. I saw the clouds slowly move across the sky, today was a big cloud day. The clouds took up half the sky but I couldn't help but notice a small cloud detached from the greater, bigger ones. It was a small cloud, doing its on thing, moving at its own pace.

I kind of want to be that cloud, I really do.

But for tonight, goodnight.