Give Me a Reason to Respond

Not many things really bother me, but one thing really does. Just because it has absolutely no relevance in my life. It makes nothing better, nothing worse. It is just completely pointless.

Those one word, meaningless text messages I get from random people throughout the day.

I'm not talking about those one word text messages that you get from you significant other which pretty much means you've screwed up somehow.

I'm not talking about the little "I love you"s or the "I miss you"s. Those I really enjoy.

I'm talking about they "hey what's up"... "nothing I'm bored"..."just at the grocery store".

I'm really sorry, I really don't care. Why did you text me. Do you want to see me? Do you want to know about my life? Is there an issue you want me to listen to because I am all ears? No? Why did you text me?

I pay for unlimited text messages, I don't even mind the time it takes me to take out my phone and respond, but I don't really know what to say to "I'm at the grocery store" Did you find twenty dollars and want to split a burrito at Chipotle?

I don't get people sometimes.

I remember back when I was at ODU I met this girl named, lets call her Amanda. She was a cool girl, seemed really into me. Very pretty girl and I remember the first time I saw her she walked right up to me said I was cute and give me a nice kiss. Quite random at a populated party but refreshingly real. I like that in a girl. You probably going to take that as "Camron likes sluts who kiss him the first time they see him at parties." No that's not it at all. I like how she was real about thinking I was attractive and not being one of the girls that I can't figure out to save myself. Much to my dismay she changed into one of those girls. Later she would flirt with me in person, one on one, but around other people she sort of changed. Hard to explain it but she just got extremely weird, almost anti Camron. Hey, maybe I'm just one of those guys that girls like to keep on the down low.

I don't get that.

I've been talking to this one girl recently, nothing serious, just talking. I took this vow that I'm not going to really hook up with a girl till it means something. So far I've been doing pretty well at it. I told this girl this and she was all about it. When we hung out all she wanted to do was kiss me and try to get with me. I declined surprisingly and haven't heard from her since.

I don't get that.

The same girl was posting comments on my wall a couple weeks ago. They were cute comments that made me feel like someone cared again. It was fun to read comments like that again. One night, late, a girl that ended it with me a few months back called me asking about the comments and who's the girl. I explained to her the circumstance and she said she was jealous. This is the girl that I really had no idea why she ended it with me. She now tells me shes jealous, I'm so confused.

I don't get that.

This picture makes sense.

But for tonight, goodnight.