Letter 2 - My Crush

I feel like writing about "my crush" is extremely elementary. I just started this whole letter idea, so I don't intend to stray away just yet. I don't think I've had a crush since high school. If I see a pretty girl, I notice her, but I wouldn't call her my crush. If I'm interested with a girl, I try to make something out of it. If it works it works, if it doesn't, it doesn't. I wouldn't call that a crush either.

I hope this makes sense though.

Dear Crushes,

I am going to write to each and every one of you. This is one jumbled letter to express how I feel to the girl that sits behind me with a group of girls in sociology, to the blond that smiled at me in front of Starbucks last week, to the girls on Facebook that post sexy lyrics and awesome videos, this is to you.

I guess the best way to describe my crush is by telling you that I notice you, and I think your extremely attractive. I want to get to know you. Not many people know this but I can be quite shy without the social lubricant of alcohol. I doubt I am going to walk up to you and express how I feel about you physically, because frankly I don't know who you are emotionally. I'd love to get to know you, and see if you are a fun person, I'm sure you are. But for now that stays unknown. Hopefully that won't last long.

To the girls of my past that I think about from time to time. I miss you. I guess you could say I still have a crush on you. In no way saying that I am still in love, if that what it was in the first place. But I do miss you. I miss driving with you with your hand on my hand while we sang songs to our favorite artists. I miss going to concerts and dancing with you. I miss sitting in public places just chatting, enjoying the sun. I miss the back seat, I miss laying with you, holding you. I miss saying I love you to you, I do.

This isn't an invitation to start another relationship anew, its just the truth.

To the girls throughout college, I apologize for being such a douche. I'm sorry for being an ass, because I did care about you. The kisses weren't blind and meaningless, I'll always remember them, I'll remember the movie nights and the sun rises on my roof with cigarettes in our mouths after an amazing party. I will always remember the night trips to the beach, dancing in the sand at 2 a.m.

I would write to the girls of the present, but they are non-existent. But to all my crushes, I want to get to know you, and I miss you.

I'll always miss you.

Just that guy,
Cam

But for tonight, stay tuned because I'm writing one more.