Letter 4 - My Dreams

Just letting you know, I've been rocking out to some classic rock today. Some of the best, Kansas, Steve Miller Band, Bob Dylan, Tom Petty, Boston, and Lynyrd Skynyrd. Its been a good day, good weather, good music. Had a smile on my face, caught up with my cousin and ran into one of my fraternity brothers. I really miss some of my brothers, we've had some amazing times.

Dear Dreams,

Why are you so hard to get to sometimes? Why is it that even if i pursue some of you, it doesn't seem to work out? Basically its hard living in this shadow that I have created for myself. The shadow that I won't achieve half the things I wanted to. I know I'm young but some of my dreams just seem so hard to reach.

I want to live in a life full of music. If I could do anything in the world, I would want to be a rock star. The music, the lifestyle, the fame, the glory, I want it all. Most of all I want to get my thoughts out there. The reason I stopped putting my lyrics up on this blog is because I saw one of my so called "friends" put my lyrics up on his status. He was letting people compliment him on how well he wrote his lyrics. This really bugged me. I'm fine with you using my ideas and putting them out there, but letting people think that its you, that is just a no no. It gets in the way of my dreams.

I want to write, I want to write so that people will read, and understand where I am coming from. Ever since I started this, I've heard the good and the bad. I enjoy it both, in life there's always going to be haters. So please, if you do read my blog, tell me. Let me know if you love it, hate it, despise it. The best feeling in the world, lately, is when I get a message on Facebook saying how they love my writing style, and that I should keep on writing. If you don't let me know, your hurting my dreams, even if your critique is against me.

I want to be a columnist for a major newspaper or magazine, possibly writing about music. A job at Alternative Press would be the best thing in the world. This blog has only skimmed the surface of my thoughts, I have so much more to say, about politics and religion and other completely controversial topics. I tend to think against the grain of common day society. I think writing is helping with my dreams, I think I'll keep doing it.

I want a family. Now this dream is going to be put off for sometime. I don't mean a family but I want my own family. I don't mean a brotherhood of guys, I have that. I don't mean parents and siblings, I have that. I mean a wife, and kids, someday. I think I'd be a good husband, a good father. I guess time will tell. This is a dream I can put off, but I guess I have to date to semi-pursue it. Calling all girls, I need you so I can get closer to my dreams. I'm just kidding.

I want to own my own place. I don't care if its a club, or a bar, or a restaurant, or a hotel, or anything. I just think that would be an amazing job for me. I'm amazing with people and I think that I would take it seriously enough to make it a successful business. I think this dream is the most realistic. I'll promote or bar tend in DC until I have the resources, the persona, and the capital to pursue. Now I just have to find a job in that field. I should wait till I turn twenty-one first. One year away.

I want to be in love again. I guess that is sort of a dream, isn't it? I do.

Dreams, help me accomplish you. You won't regret it.

Your dreamer,
Cam


But for tonight, goodnight.