Letter 14 - Someone I've Drifted From

Dear Dani,

We talked today on the phone, but I had you name picked for this letter for awhile now. I don't think a simple phone call is going to change the fact that we have drifted away incredibly. Its extremely regrettable in my eyes, and I wish it didn't happen, but hey that's life.

I looked up the definition for best friend up online, see what other people thought.

The first one says this - The one friend who is the closest to you.

I hate that answer, because its rare to have exactly one best friends.

The next one is asked, "What is the definition of "best friend" because I have more than one? Is it possible to have more than one best friend?" and the reply was " Yes, you can have tons of best friends, I do. A best friend is a person you can trust, someone you can tell your secrets to and they can keep it a secret, someone to cheer you up when you're sad and someone that's always there for you."

I like that one a lot better. According to that definition, we were definitely best friends in my eyes. Sure, we were romantic at time, and between you and me, I'll always have a little something something for you. But it sucks, to lose someone that you considered your best friend to something like a split up in an affectionate sense. You were someone that I could always talk to, and really enjoy talking to, although usually utterly flirty.

It always sucks to loose a relationship, I'm not going to sugarcoat it, but you were one of my best friends. Did we hang out everyday, and do best friend things? No, but there was always emotional support from you, it really helped get me through some rough things.


Most of my relationships started with a kiss, or a holding of the hand. My relationship with you started with a friendship, one that I believed turned into a beautiful one. We used to stay up until wee hours in the morning talking about whatever our hearts concerned. We would argue, gracefully, and agree about most everything. Even when we weren't romantic, we still shared times, sitting in a car listening to music, or sitting on swings together, getting eaten alive my misquotes, talking about our current boyfriend and girlfriend.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I really regret not keeping as close to you over the years. I also regret not trying harder to get you to realize that even if we aren't together in a relationship, we can still be close friends. You know I wouldn't dream of compromising your relationship with your significant other, and I know you would never try to ruin any of my potential relationships.


And frankly if any girl told me I couldn't be friends with you because of jealousy, I'd tell her to get over it. I think you know I've done that once before, wouldn't hesitate to do it again.


You friend,
Cam


But for tonight, goodnight.